gods as energy? (philisophical rambling)


Gods as energy

Most ancient religions did not have such a “black and white” outlook of their gods. Often the gods held within them some sense of duality, and most gods had some sort of flaw that often got them into trouble (think of Oden’s womanizing (more often raping), and Prometheus’ punishment for wanting to enlighten humanity with the “fire of the gods”, even though it was forbidden). In the beginning even Christianity gave their God faults, the Old Testament is full of phrases like “I am a jealous god”, and I think we can all agree he had a bit of a temper. I mean, was wiping out humanity with a flood really the mature thing to do? Then suddenly in the New Testament, he is far more peaceful and loving, no longer the wrathful god that demanded sacrifices, he is now meant to be known for peace and forgiveness.

A vulgar but accurate representation between the teachings of the OT and the NT.

There are the obvious similarities between Horus and Jesus, and I believe the grieving Isis was transformed into the grieving Virgin Mary (but that’s just my humble opinion). Set has been melded with others (often it seems to be the trickery of Loki) to become the deceiver that we know now as Satan. Ancient goddesses such a Lilitu and Ishtar are no longer the goddesses of power, strength and femininity that they once were. Now they are thought of as frightful demons like Astaroth and shrieking whores like Lilith. In the sad case of Lilitu’s, she has now been all but forgotten by the modern Christian religion.


All of this has been well documented and well theorized upon, by minds far more intelligent than mine. But, the thought that I believe now bares consideration is; what if these similarities go a step farther? Perhaps there is a reason that certain personalities or archetypes have been so well absorbed and accepted through the ages. Perhaps there is more to it that just making a few name changes and then forcefully converting believers. Perhaps, these archetypes exist naturally for all of us.

Ashtoreth - Astarte
Illustration of a “Deific Mask” in Michael Ford’s book “Dragon of the two Flames”.

My theory is that if we remove ourselves from the idea that all of these deities are “literal” creatures, as in anthropomorphic and made of physical “matter”, then a few avenues of thought begin to open up to us. Perhaps rather than seeing these beings as literal deities, we should see them as currents of energy. These deities as we know them may simply be symbolic representations of the forces and the energies that surround us. After all, human history was originally an oral tradition, and things like symbolism, and images of powerful, beautiful, or frightful creatures have a habit of clinging to our memories.

This doesn’t make the “deities” any less powerful, in fact I think it does the opposite. It makes them essentially a force of nature. Similarly, I believe that a working knowledge in chaos magic(k) (if you are unfamiliar start with Peter Carroll) actually gives credence to this path. If these deities are essentially energies that have existed on this earth for (quite possibly) longer than we have, and we are of this earth and made of essentially the same energies then not only would it be beneficial to strengthen our “connection” and our understanding of these energies but also we have the ability to master and enhance these energies in ourselves.

Currently this is just a theory of mine, and I am still pursuing research that may prove me right or wrong, but for now I thought I’d get the basic outline on paper. If you have any ideas or suggestions please share them =)

The “black flame”


Thoth tarot , trump XVII – The Star. Aleister Crowley. (Symbol of a “guiding light”, harmony and balance).


Thanks for coming back =)

Anyone who has spoken with others who follow the LHP or who has done a bit of research has likely come across the phrase “the black flame”. This is really a very important concept (possibly the single most important concept), but it seems like it has become convoluted and has become the cause of many, many, misunderstandings. This is the 3rd post for this blog, so in the vein of completion, I’d like to give you a cursory understanding of this very core concept as we reach the close of what I will consider our introduction.


Seal of the Infernal Union – to many this symbolizes the concept of the black flame


The black flame is a symbolic term. It is essentially the LHP term for the “divine spark” that resides in us all. Over the centuries, many philosophers and religious figures have tried to define what differentiates humans from the rest of animal kingdom.

Remember that LHP practitioners believe that Satan/Lucifer/Set/Prometheus etc..is a symbol of knowledge (all knowledge), it is necessary to understanding this concept. I personally believe that having a deep and balanced understanding of both “good” and
bad” knowledge (for lack of a better term)  is what fuels that spark within us.

There is no truly universal definition of this, because much like when you are asked to define your soul, you realize, it can be a very personal definition. But to most LHP practitioners, the black flame is what separates humans from the animals, it’s what burns with in us as the chaotic, rebellious, even sometimes destructive spirit that is necessary to lead to innovation, advancement, and in many cases beauty. According to some, this spark is what initially lead man to more creative endeavors such as music and art.


There are also some very prominent Luciferian groups who believe that a balance between light and dark energies and similarly, male and female energies, is needed to really manifest this sense of self enlightenment. In some sects this concept is defined by a sexual union of two deities; Lilith (pre-christian goddess, mythological queen of hell), and Samael who has both been defined as a demon of war and passion, and, as a being synonymous with Satan himself. This pair is also viewed by many as a sort of opposite but parallel version of what Adam and Eve represent.


I agree with this sentiment, I think a balanced understanding off all the energies both around us and within us, is necessary to know thyself and fuel the spark within us. And so, to close this introduction with a bit of a personal note, here is a short poem I wrote as a way of trying to illustrate my personal interpretation of the black flame;

The flame dances before me
Casting shadows across my world.
It ignites from deep within,
And is born beyond bliss.
I can see truth now,
It emanates from my eyes.
And as such I can see deception,
The whirlwind that is all around.
But, I fear it not,
I am no longer in its darkness,
No longer drowning in that naïve abyss,
This flame has destroyed such lies.
I do not stand within the light,
For now it burns within me.
A raging passion that drives me forward,
And the peace of intuition.

flame 2

Thank you again, for stopping by, and as always please feel free to comment or message if you have any questions. I’d love any feedback!


So, now a bit about me…

Lilith – John Collier (1887)

Hello again,

Now that you know some of the basics of Satanism / Luciferianism (from here on out I will group them together as LHP unless a distinction is necessary) I can tell you a bit about myself and my personal beliefs.


I suppose one of the first thing I should mention is that I am not a member of any order, church, temple, or organization. I have never been initiated or baptized into any belief system or religion, and I fully intend to keep it that way. Everything I state or believe is personal to me, I do not claim to speak for anyone other than myself. Order’s, churches, and temples can be wonderful things at certain times, but in general I feel that dogmatically organized religion leads to stagnation.

(Unfortunately, this is a necessary note:)

To any of you who have heard or read silly rumors about the “ILLUMINATI” or the dreaded “New World Order”; I’m sorry to disappoint you, but that whole idea is absolutely hilarious, not just to myself but to every follower of the LHP I’ve ever met or spoken to. (Seriously, not to be mean to anyone that has been sucked into that, but it has lead to a lot of jokes).


Anyway here goes:


I define myself as a Theistic Luciferian. I believe that there is a “deity” (or possibly just a current of energy), which humans throughout history have referred to as Satan, Lucifer, Set, Prometheus, etc… basically I believe that this deity or energy is able to help lead the human mind to knowledge, strength and complete empowerment.

I consciously chose to use the term Luciferian rather than Satanist to try and avoid some of the cognitive “gut reactions” that the word satanist causes. I believe that as far as Christianity is concerned, they used both names for the same entity. Lucifer was one of god’s favored angels, but once he “fell” he was called Satan, which just means adversary. The way I see it, the name Satan was used as an insult, similar to referring to him as an “asshole”.

Actually this brings a basic theology question to mind, I’d like you to consider if you’re willing:

If god creates each angel with a purpose (Michael, the warrior, Lucifer the light bringer, etc…) then how would Lucifer have “rebelled” in a negative sense?

My belief is that if Lucifer was created to shed light and knowledge, then it stands to reason that such desires drive his every action. The only logical reason he would “rebel”, especially against his beloved creator, is if God’s intentions for man were different than his (which I personally believe is represented by the story of Adam and Eve).

I don’t expect to change anyone’s mind, I just think it’s a perspective that doesn’t often get considered.

Anyway, as I was saying, I never refer to Lucifer as Satan in my work, I personally believe it would disrespectful. Wanting to be respectful does not mean that I worship anyone. I do not, and have never “worshiped” Lucifer, or “sold” my soul.

Seems like a pretty silly concept to me =)

I believe that we as humans are created with with same potential as any “deity” that we’ve come to recognize. I’m certainly not going to sell off my potential to anyone, it doesn’t matter whether his name is God or Lucifer.

I serve no one but myself, but I have a respect for the knowledge that the LHP has lead me to. I respect Lucifer (Set, Promethius, etc…) for what he represents and what he has helped me manifest in my life.

Thoth Tarot – Trump XIV, Art. Aleister Crowley (Symbol of the concept of balance, alchemy, and essentially creation)

Thank you again for stopping by, I hope you found something of interest. Please comment or message me with any questions or concerns. All feedback would be much appreciated!

Some basics

Hello all,


Thoth tarot – Aleister Crowley. Trump V – The Heirophant (Pope) (Symbol of deep spiritual growth and understanding)

This will be an anonymous-ish blog. The point of which is to shed some light on what it really means to be a Luciferian or in loose terms a “Satanist”. There is a visceral hatred for the Left Hand Path (LHP) which is fueled almost entirely by misconceptions and fear. I am an everyday woman in my late 20’s. I work, go to school, play in a local symphony and adore my two (completely spoiled) pugs. I think I am fairly “normal” and it’s about time someone broke down the barriers formed by the (sometimes) necessary dark imagery and reputation.

As I’m sure many others on this path can attest to, once you tell someone you are a Luciferian, or that you study anything in the LHP they immediately start asking questions that might be offensive if it wasn’t for the fact that they are so damn silly. I’ll first try to try and answer some of those more entertaining basics;

1. “So, do you sacrifice babies, animals,  virgins, etc?”

First and foremost: NO.

Seriously? You think I could hurt this face???

A main tenant in all LHP systems is that each living creature has his/her own WILL. Up to a certain point, this can sometimes be equated the the christian idea of a “soul”, but it does get a bit more complex than that (we’ll discuss that another day). With this in mind, why would any LHP practitioner try and influence or harm another creature’s WILL? To do so would require going against the very foundations of their beliefs. This is christian propaganda and fear mongering. Nothing more.

2. OK, but you’re evil or something?

I don’t consider myself evil at all. The word Lucifer means Light bringer or light bearer, typically this is understood as meaning the bringer of knowledge or enlightenment. Just for a moment, to make a simple point, take the biblical story of Adam and Eve in the garden. The tree that they were commanded not to eat from was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, and yet this is the tree that bore that fruit which the serpent used to tempt Eve. It sure looks to me as if Lucifer was giving Eve a choice. Eat the fruit and fight for your own freedom, or don’t, stay naive to the truth and stay sheltered and safe here in the garden. In this type of literary depiction I don’t see the serpent doing anything evil. In fact, it is much more detrimental to man to shelter him, and allow him to become weak.

Adam and Eve

The bible and most Right Hand Path (RHP) beliefs will tell you that going against “GOD” is evil. That anything other than obedience can lead you to sin and damnation. This sounds a lot like more fear mongering and scare tactics to try and frighten people into blind obedience. I mean, why else they threaten you with an eternity of “fire and brimstone”, if it isn’t meant as a scare tactic?

I define evil in a much more philosophical sense;

Evil is stagnation, weakness and decay. Evil is anything that warps our sense of purpose and self into something destructive. Evil is found in the lies that dogma often creates to support itself.


3. But you really worship the Devil?

That depends on who you ask. This is where things get more complex, but here’s a (very) basic breakdown of some general principles:

Satanist (Church of Satan, LaVey):

This was really the first “satanic” church to appear in the modern era. It was founded in 1966 by Anton Szandor LaVey, and is responsible for releasing THE SATANIC BIBLE, as well as numerous other writings that helped bring the LHP more into the “mainstream”.

Church of Satan (CoS) members do not believe in Satan as a literal deity. They follow an atheistic belief system, they view “Satan” as a symbol or an archetype for the necessary rebellion and individualized free thinking that true enlightenment requires. 

Gnostic Satanist (Gnostic Luciferian):

Gnostic symbol of Abraxus

I view gnostic satanists as a sort of “middle ground” between the atheist beliefs of the Church of Satan and it’s followers and the more “traditional” beliefs of theistic satanists.

The term gnostic, is a Greek word that means learned knowledge

Gnostic Satanism is just that, it’s all about learning. Much like the CoS satanists, most gnostic satanists see Lucifer as a bringer of light (knowledge), and so they study everything. It is quite common to hear a gnostic satanist talk of studying philosophy, ancient cultures, psychology, and theology on top of any type of LHP topics.

I have found essentially NO difference between Gnostic Christan beliefs and Gnostic Satanist beliefs, aside from perspective.

Some are atheistic and others believe in a more literal manifestation of Lucifer, but no information is turned away. In fact many people who currently define themselves as either an atheistic satanist or a theistic satanist, only decided such after extensive study of the gnostic subjects.

Theistic Satanist (theistic Luciferian):

The Baphomet

Now this is where you may find bits of so called “devil worship”. Though that word in itself is very misleading. Theistic Satanists believe in a literal being (or energy) that previous cultures have named Satan, Lucifer, Set, Prometheus, etc… but the one thing to keep in mind is that Satanists and Luciferians alike understand that their WILL is just as important as the will of any “deity” so there is very little (if any) actual “worship”. You will often find a sense of reverence and respect, rather than a need to “bow”.

 All of these concepts get much more in depth, and there are numerous other organizations and groups that deserve study,  but I wanted to at least give a brief explanation to start. Hopefully you learned something new, and if not then you will soon (hopefully). Please feel free to comment or message me, I’d love all the feedback I can get!

thank you for visiting